DAY TWO ~ MEETING TWO
Options For Destructive Behaviors
Well, which destructive behavior exactly are we talking about here? J There are so many and the hardest part of dealing with them is that I usually eat to deal. Alternatives are there, but I don't always seek them. My worst destructive behavior, other than the COE, is my anger and lashing out at my family, friends and anyone around me. I not only hurt myself then, I hurt others too. And these are other people that mean the world to me, not just strangers passing through. When my anger comes up, I sometimes count to ten, walk away, take deep breaths and I could take the time to pray. I say "could" because my anger is so immediate and immense that I just don't think "okay, now let's pray about this so that I don't blow up." It just doesn't happen that way. As for alternatives to eating over my emotions, I tend to write now or I get on my computer or I find a meeting or I email a loop I belong to. I am learning to ask for help when the time comes that I need it.
This meeting helped me to think about other options and to realize that it is something I really need to work on. I may not always find someone to talk with or a meeting happening just at that moment that I need someone. It's easy for me to say, "okay, next time, I'll stop and pray" or "next time I'll do this" or "next time I'll do that" ... but it doesn't mean that it will be easy to actually do when the time comes.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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