"Lack of power was our dilemma"

". . . even though it was impossible for any of us to fully define or comprehend that Power, which is God."

"Many of us have been so touchy that even casual reference to spiritual things made us bristle with antagonism."

This chapter has meant a lot to my recovery. I came to OA believing in a sort of Crisis Center God who could be called on in emergencies but probably wouldn't come through for me anyway. I had given up organized religion in college because of what I perceived to be the hypocrisy of its practitioners.

However, that did not stop me from trying to find some universal truths or principles by which to live. I taught comparative religion units in high school classes. I pondered the mysteries of the east and the west. But nothing seemed to fill the yawning emptiness I felt.

My first stint in this program I was still making myself my HP. I was in control of my food. I was in control of my weight loss, and I was so successful that I decided I was cured and left.

My second stint was marred by a dreadful occurance. My father was diagnosed with terminal cancer. At the time I was dry sober and using OA for my only 12 Step Program. I recognized the necessity of dealing with his death without drinking or overeating or losing my sanity. Thus, I was forced to find a Higher Power and turn my father's life and death over to It.

2. What doubts and prejudices did you have regarding the word, "God?"

3. What is your conception of God today?

4. What spiritual concepts have you accepted that were previously out of reach?

It is the sharing of our collective experience, strength, hope and wisdom inspired by our reading of this Big Book together that will make a difference in our recovery. *It would be helpful to you as you read along to substitute the word food for alcohol and compulsive eater for alcoholic. I hope all of you will join us on our journey through the Big Book.

Thank you all for being part of this group!

Love in recovery,