Dear Friends On The Journey ~

My name is Mari and I am a compulsive eater and will be eternally grateful to have found Twelve Steps which have given me the deepest meaning to life I have ever known. This is my journey to recovery journal ~ and I appreciate your letting me share it with you.

There was a time in my life that the Twelve Steps were just two words to me. More than just a time in my life ~ for decades of my life. Here I was a compulsive eater in absolutely misery going from diet to diet from pill to pill yet the Twelve Steps have been with us since before I was born. I often wonder why I never stopped long enough to take a serious look at them. I ask myself now if there was a part of me that *wanted* to shield myself in an armor of fat.

Bill W. and Dr. Bob gave mankind a gift. Even these two weren't aware of the far-reaching effects their friendship would eventually have. They started their movement for alcoholics and would probably be amazed that today while I was reading, I discovered that their Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous had been adapted by dozens of different groups.

I am an addict. It was very difficult for me to admit that for a long time. The disease of addiction doesn't limit itself just to alcoholism. My drug of choice was food. Someone else may choose drugs. Another may be a sex addict. Gambling. Love. Relationships. Nicotine. Compulsions and addictions are everywhere and the disease lurks in millions of us and pays no attention to race, color, creed, education, religion, where we live or who we are. I fought calling myself a compulsive overeater. I fought saying I was an addict. And I fought the hardest admitting that I had a disease. Not *just* a disease .... but an incurable disease. And it has and will continue to be with me for a lifetime.

Those of you who have been my friends for a long time know how much I admire the writings of Scott Peck who wrote "The Road Less Traveled." I'd like to share something he wrote about Bill W. and Dr. Bob and how he summed up the Twelve Step movement.

"Thus I believe the greatest positive event of the twentieth century occurred in Akron, Ohio, on June 10, 1935, when Bill W.and Dr. Bob convened the first AA meeting. It was not only the beginning of the self-help movement and the beginning of the integration of science and spirituality at a grass-roots level, but also the beginning of the community movement.

That is the other reason why I think of addiction as the sacred disease. When my AA friends and I get together, we often come to the conclusion that, very probably, God deliberately created the disease of Alcoholism in order to create alcoholics in order that these alcoholics might create AA, and thereby spearhead the community movement which is going to be the salvation not only of alcoholics and addicts but of us all."

From the book ~ Further Along the Road Less Traveled: The Unending Journey Toward Spiritual Growth by Scott Peck

What stunned me when I first read these words was the realization that the Twelve Steps was not just my salvation, not just the salvation of alcoholics .... not even just addicts ... but us all. What would life be like if, along with the Golden Rule, every child was taught to live his/her life by the Twelve Steps. Twelve Steps for children. Twelve Steps for teen-agers. Twelve Steps for young adults. Twelve Steps for everyone. The mind boggles.

Dear God,
Thank you for the gift of the Steps;
And for letting me finally discover them ~
Thank you for making them so important in my life;
That not a day shall pass without me working them.

The Recovery Group

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